All posts tagged: hope

When You Go to Urgent Care for Alone Time.

I did not want to waste a sunny Saturday in a cold, sterile building, shuffled from one closed off area to another. Yet, my heavy head, stuffy nose, and lost voice begged I go see the doctor. I contemplated my options. But wait, it was Saturday. Which meant I could leave the kids at home with Zach. Which meant I could endure the waiting rooms of PriMed without complaint, for I had a scene rolling around in my brain. I envisioned myself waiting, alone, writing the minutes away. “Yeah, I’m gonna go,” I told Zach. And I left as soon as I could. The entire experience lasted approximately two hours – two sweet, long hours. It’s terrible to battle illness, especially in seasons already stressful. It’s also terrible to be forced to escape to urgent care, the mailbox, or even the bathroom for quality alone time. The night my chills heralded what would become bronchitis, I watched the stars above the tree line in our backyard and recalled the verse from my devotion that morning: …

Time

T.S. Eliot’s poetic line, “April is the cruellest month,” always seemed a cruel statement to me. In my family, April is a celebratory time. It is September which is the cruelest. It is autumn which mixes “memory and desire.” Almost all the great losses of my life all begin in autumn, though I have lost in the winter, spring, and summer. Perhaps it is the dying fields and fading light which enhances sorrow experienced in autumn. Mercifully, the work of the Holy Spirit and the passage of time work together to bring perspective and healing. We can once again welcome any season with undying hope. On the anniversaries of loss, we can praise God for His infinite wisdom and mercy. See, I am doing a new thing!     Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness     and streams in the wasteland (Isaiah 43:19). Just as we cannot see the radiant blue above unstable, stormy skies, we cannot always see what God is doing through sorrow, and even …